Maybe I just have to accept the fact that, I'll always be an option instead of a priority.
An option in all situation. Never good in anything, never good enough to be a priority.
What can make you think of me instantly? Nothing.

Just upset with myself. Some people can literally see what's held in front for them. Future successful people. Well, I gave some thoughts today. Guess what, I saw nothing. Nothing as in, I still have no freaking idea what I would turn out to be in the future. Imagine that. No idea at all.

Fine. I'll live today like there's no tomorrow for every single day I wake up in the morning.

That's my goal.
Till I find another.


Do you know the feeling when you've studied so hard and yet when you get the paper you can't freaking answer? Knowing you've read it before, memorized it before and looked through it so many times before? And the worst part is getting the paper back and knowing you failed. What about knowing how to do a question but because of silly mistakes, cost you to lose so many marks?
Argh! Disappointed. Frustrated at first. It feels like getting slap on the face.

Well life moves on. So going to be prepared for the next battle and history must never repeat itself!



웨딩드레스 - 태양

Wedding Dress!
I don't listen much of Korean song but I just can't forget this melody.
It's a great song by Tae Yang.
Therefore, I am determined to learn this song on my keyboard. I know it will take me a long time before I master it. First of all, I don't read piano music sheets. I only know a few notes on those black and white keys. I know C of course. and it goes on. Only the right hand. So I have to memorize everything. But its good ha, I get to play by memorization too. :) Second of all, this is the third song I'm learning after Piano Man and uh half of Fur Elise. XD

Here's the original song.

A great cover by smrr00 (great stuff on his blog http://smrr00.blogspot.com)

If you want to learn too, here's the tutorial by ProjectKira (http://www.youtube.com/user/ProjectKira#p/p)

1st monthly test on Tuesday! OMG

摩斯特Da.Mon.Ster 【Expired Rubbish】官方MV

A very nice and meaningful song.


I'll be the idiot.
Being there for you whenever you need help.
Even though knowing you have someone else on your mind.
Yet knowing you wouldn't be there for me, you still come to mind first whenever I'm in trouble. Hoping you would show up and help me out.
Guess that's never gonna happen.

Emo over~
First monthly test next week and I'm pretty stressed out by how serious my parents are taking it and how serious I'm suppose to be taking it. >.<>
Trying. Trying. Trying.
Someone, motivate me please!

I'm so afraid. Chemistry and Math! HELP ME~



There are many problems that I have to solve in my life. I'm grateful they are there. They made me grow. I know myself and I had definitely changed. In terms on mentality. Well, I might not have grown much physically and still look silly on the outside. But I've learnt to see things in different perspective. Keep all those praises and criticisms coming.
And those people around me everyday, I realized how fortunate I am. I've learnt to be more grateful. I never thought I would meet someone like that but guess I'm wrong. Maybe she's there to wake me.


My aunt took us out for a movie today. We watched Inception. Its a very nice movie and I recommend you guys to see it. Great story line, might be a little confusing or total lost for some who could not get a quick grasp of what's going on but for the first time, a movie that actually made me constantly wanting to know what will go on every single second. However, it left me hanging at the end. I hope his totem stop spinning and it wasn't a dream anymore. That would be the perfect ending. =P
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Anyway going out for another movie with my friends tomorrow morning. Don't know if there's ticket for Street Dance. People say its nice (well they do for all movies don't they). When I say Inception is nice, I really mean nice. Cause I don't simply just watch any movies and some movies are just a waste of money. I wouldn't even spend RM8 on pirated DVD for movies I feel not worth watching. Cause its also another waste of time.
I did wasted RM11 on Marmaduke. That is a pure waste of everything. But had no choice. My friends bought the ticket and I just tag along since I said 'anything' when they asked what movie I want to watch. Just great.
Alright, enough with movies. There's so many activities in school that need money. Now I feel a little hard to open my mouth for money from my dad every morning. Guess its time to dig my piggy bank? NO! Well, I don't have a choice do I. Sigh~

Aight, no homework left. I have the weekend for revision! Finally~ But since I'm going out tomorrow. Sigh~ again.
XD don't know what I'm ranting 'bout. Don't make sense. I'm just really worn out now.
Good night!

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Wah~ now I'm stuck to my bed. Using the laptop to surf the net online. Despite being very tired, I still can't resist using the internet. I've got lots of math homework to complete and I guess Youtube can keep me awake. Had been out all day. From 8am to 5pm. I've never spent so much time in school on a Saturday like today. But of course, at least it wasn't that boring. But definitely tiring. When can I have 8 hours of sleep again? But I don't think I need 8 hours of sleep anymore, cause I function pretty normal with just 5 or 6 hours of sleep nowadays. Guess my body got used to it. Just not my mind. Especially during Chemistry class. Shh....
Got to do my math now~


Had great fun last night. Watching football with my family members. My uncles, cousins, relatives....The majority were cheering for Germany. Only 3 on Argentina's side. They were pretty much teased and laughed at when Germany scored the first goal in just the second minute. That's my first time and I think, the one and only time I'm watching football in a crowd. Just so you know....Germany won 4-0. :)

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Forget about football....I've finished my Math homework. Biology notes. and did a little revision too~ Wait....I've got an essay not done. Damn!

Going off now. I'm not a procrastinator! (Oh well, at least I'm trying to change)

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Signing off for now~ =)


Friday is here again! yahoo~ On Monday, I crave for Friday. But when Friday finally arrives, I feel that time is passing too fast. Just a little too fast. It felt like yesterday when I returned to school for Form 6. But looks like, it's July already. Almost settled down. Change of environment (as in labs and classroom). New teachers. (salute! school and tuition). New friends. (Crazy bunch).
Form 6: Not as bad as people describe. Especially those who did not went through it themselves. I received encouragement from my seniors, friends who had went through STPM. Thanks~ I enter form 6, willingly. My own choice. :)
An increase in homework load. Math and Biology. Almost everyday got homework. Regret accumulating Math exercises. Warned. Yet....:( Laziness. Haha. Anyway, promised myself to complete all homework and study ahead. (Quite pressured by those in my class who're extremely hardworking)
Give me tips to study Chemistry. Have a good teacher. Yet my memory. Weak. Heard there's a lot to memorize in Organic Chemistry.
Guess where I get my motivation from? My tuition teacher. Glad I attend his tuition. Love Maths more.
Hopefully I'll have the same feeling for 1 and a half year.
Lets work together! Have fun. Study hard. Achieve our dreams.

Oh~ What have I written?


可是,昨天你又回来, 我们见面时,没有尴尬,却聊得起。
啊, 爽!

可是,我回到家。 功课做到1点~ =U=


Sha Gua

Music is fun. You crave for your Ipod when you get real bored.
But sometimes...listening to a certain song at the wrong moment just sucks....
The song's nice...but you felt like it was written for you....and your feeling goes down the meter....
Well, for the first time I had the feeling....
Completely went out of mood....all I could think....
Sigh...what was I thinking...I need a mirror...
Thank you....



Random thoughts

I turned out liking you, a lot more than I originally planned.

I don't choose it. It just happens.

But sadly, you like someone else.

We're world's apart.
Even though it doesn't make sense cause we both live on planet earth.

Sometimes I really wish I get the same treatment other girls have.

But yet again, people have different perceptions.

That's their mouth, hand, brain, legs, mind and thoughts.

I guess that's how its meant to be.


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Think About It (1)

The rest of your life is being shaped right now. With the dreams you chase. The choices you make. and the person you decide to be.


Perserverance. We'll survive!

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Fall seven times, stand up eight.

You can't go through life quitting everything. If you're going to achieve anything, you've got to stick with something.

There is no telling how many miles you will have to run while chasing a dream.

Success seems to be largely a matter of hanging on after others have let go

Whatever it maybe, hang on. We'll make it someday.

Have hope.




Facebook. You're paying for it.

I just read this article in Newsweek.
This is a part of it :

If you don't spend your days glued to tech blogs, you might not know about the latest trend among hipster techies: quitting Facebook. These folks, including a bunch of Google engineers, are bailing out because Facebook just changed its rules so that much of your personal profile information, including where you work, what music you like, and where you went to school, now gets made public by default. Some info is even shared with companies that are special partners of Facebook, like Yelp, Pandora, and Microsoft. And while there are ways to dial back on some of this by tinkering with your privacy settings, it's tricky to figure out—intentionally so, according to cynics.

The fear is that people are being lured into Facebook with the promise of a fun, free service, and don't realize that they're paying for it by giving up loads of personal information.Facebook then attempts to "monetize" one's data by selling it to advertisers that want to send targeted messages.

Most folks using Facebook have no idea this is happening. Even if you're very tech-savvy and do know what the company is up to, you still have no idea what you're paying for Facebook, because people don't really know what their personal data is worth.

The biggest problem, however, is that the company keeps changing the rules. Early on, you could keep everything private. That was the great thing about Facebook—you could create your own little private network. Last year, the company changed its privacy rules so that a lot of things—your city, your profile photo, the names of your friends—were set, by default, to be shared with everyone on the Internet. Sure, you could change everything back and make it private. But most people probably didn't bother. Now Facebook is going even further by insisting that unless you agree to make things like your hometown, interests, and friends' names public, then you can't list them at all.

However :

The whole kerfuffle is a misunderstanding, according to Elliot Schrage, Facebook's vice president of communications and public policy. In his version of events, the company is simply making changes to improve the service it provides to users by giving them more "granular" control over what they share, and if people don't share information they have a "less satisfying experience." Facebook is innovating so rapidly, he says, that people don't fully understand what the company is doing, and that change is scary.

By Daniel Lyons.

I don't know.....



I try not to drink too much water. Just to prevent the need to use the toilet. Why?
Because my classroom is located at the highest floor. And the stairs are small.

Our school had gotong-royong today. Hm...fetching water from the tap near the guard house? Imagine that.

3 days of activities...I'm quite tired right now but my body is resisting sleep. LOL.

Orientation for form 6 started on Thursday, after school. From 2pm to 5pm. All indoors. Played a few games. Given group for the next day.

Orientation continued the next day. From 8am to 5pm. Indoors during the morning session and outdoor during the afternoon session.

To sum it up. Orientation was awesome. Especially the outdoor session. Running around, water and mud. Thanks to the heavy rain before. I had fun. Exhausted but it was worth it.

So for the first week, we only have Sunday to rest.

My limbs are aching.

I sense some changes already. Hopefully there's more to come.



Form 6 - Second Day

Finally, no more thinking. Form 6, I've entered.

Just second day and all the teachers have to say is, 'This is going to be hard. So work real hard,'

Well. Thanks for that advice but do you have something different?

You've did a good job scaring me so far.

I know its the truth but still, the fear is there.

World second hardest exam. STPM.

But people say once you get through it, it would be easier in university. Hopefully.

Well, I'm going to do my best. That's all I know.


We have classes now. I'm in Pra UB 2. Taking Biology, Chemistry, Math T and PA.

Four subjects, enough to 'eat' you.

Orientation starts tomorrow and continue till Friday for the whole day.

Seniors said it'll be fun. Well, maybe more fun for them. LOL

Anyway, we'll see.


Tuition homework to be done. The cycle is going on again.


Form Six

10th of May.

First day of Form 6.

So I guess its confirmed. I'm going back to school.


10 Powerful Google Search Tricks

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Animal facts?

Hippopotamuses – incredibly dangerous creatures – have a very unique ability: instead of sweating, they exude a pink liquid which is a natural sun block. This, and their ability to spend an indefinite amount of time in the water helps to keep them safe from the blistering sun.

Kangaroos can’t fart. They convert the small quantity of methane they produce into an energy source which their body reuses. Scientists hope that they will be able to transfer the bacteria that causes this in kangaroos to cows, to reduce methane emissions to save the world from the latest fashionable catastrophe: global warming.

Pardon me...I was too free....experimenting on PhotoScape. (Still a noob)

Credit : http://artsyspot.com/mg/news.html


Watched Ronin last night.
They've got one of the best car chasing scenes I've ever seen.
Amazing. Despite the fact that I don't really fancy car chasing movies.
It's a pretty old movie - 1998.

A ronin is a samurai that is masterless. (huh.)


Funny Divorce Letter

I don't know if you guys had any jokes in your life for the pass few days or weeks or months. Its been dull for me. This might brighten your day. Or so I think. Anyway...have fun. Have a nice day. If you've read this before. Oh sorry. :)

Dear wife,

I’m writing you this letter to tell you that I’m leaving you forever. I’ve been a good man to you for 7 years & I have nothing to show for it.

These last 2 weeks have been hell.

Your boss called to tell me that you quit your job today & that was the last straw. Last week, you came home & didn’t even notice I had a new haircut, had cooked your favorite meal & even wore a brand new pair of silk boxers. You ate in 2 minutes, & went straight to sleep after watching all of your soaps. You don’t tell me you love me anymore; you don’t want sex or anything that connects us as husband & wife. Either you’re cheating on me or you don’t love me anymore; whatever the case, I’m gone.

Your EX-Husband

P.S. don’t try to find me. Your SISTER & I are moving away to West Virginia together! Have a great life!


Dear Ex-Husband,

Nothing has made my day more than receiving your letter.

It’s true you & I have been married for 7 years, although a good man is a far cry from what you’ve been. I watch my soaps so much because they drown out your constant whining & griping Too bad that doesn’t work. I DID notice when you got a hair cut last week, but the 1st thing that came to mind was ‘You look just like a girl!’ Since my mother raised me not to say anything if you can’t say something nice, I didn’t comment. And when you cooked my favorite meal, you must have gotten me confused with MY SISTER, because I stopped eating pork 7 years ago. About those new silk boxers: I turned away from you because the $49.99 price tag was still on them, & I prayed it was a coincidence that my sister had just borrowed $50 from me that morning.

After all of this, I still loved you & felt we could work it out. So when I hit the lotto for 10 million dollars, I quit my job & bought us 2 tickets to Jamaica But when I got home you were gone.. Everything happens for a reason, I guess.

I hope you have the fulfilling life you always wanted. My lawyer said that the letter you wrote ensures you won’t get a dime from me.

So take care.


Your Ex-Wife, Rich As Hell & Free!

P.S. I don’t know if I ever told you this, but my sister Carla was born Carl.

I hope that’s not a problem.

Credit: happy things


A Creed To Live By

I know who I am. I know through your eyes, you might think that I'm not trying at all. But I had always been trying to do my best. Maybe its how I react..I don't know....
But please don't give up on me yet...cause I'm not done yet.

Don't undermine your worth by comparing
yourself with others.
It is because we are different that each of us is special.
Don't set your goals by what other people
deem important.

Only you know what is best for you.
Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart.
Cling to them as you would your life, for without them
life is meaningless.

Don't let your life slip through your fingers
by living in the past or for the future.
By living your life one day at a time,
you live all the days of your life.

Don't give up when you still have something to give.
Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.
Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect.
It is this fragile thread that binds us to each other.
Don't be afraid to encounter risks.

It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.
Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find.
The quickest way to receive love is to give love.
The fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly;
and the best way to keep love is to give it wings.
Don't dismiss your dreams.

To be without dreams is to be without hope;
to be without hope is to be without purpose.
Don't run through life so fast that you forget
not only where you've been, but also where you're going.
Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored
each step of the way.

~ Nancey Sims ~


Randomness ==

I read a lot yesterday.
What an accomplishment.
Gonna reread my F4 and F5 chemistry notes again...
Refresh before school starts!!
in a good mood today..
IDK why..its only 8.30 in the morning.

Have a nice day~


So. So. And So.

At first when I received the news, I slammed the table hard. Wow! Unconsciously.
Bad news. I was disappointed. But of course, there's no one to blame but me!
If I had worked harder!
If...if...and more ifs...
Forget about those if...
Argh! Want to throw something!
Something I saw the day before and today itself again added to my disappointment.
I vanished.................



Harap maaf....permohonan saudari untuk.....adalah TIDAK BERJAYA.


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Dr. Randy Pausch

Have you heard of this man named Randy Pausch? No? Yeah, neither did I till last night when I was searching for some interesting lectures on Youtube. I came across this video - Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams. This lecture is also called the Last Lecture. He delivered his 'Last Lecture' on the 18th of September 2007 in Carnegie Mellon University. He offered a lot of things in this lecture and one of them is inspirational life lessons.
This is the 'Last Lecture'. Have a look.

Aight, these are some of Randy Pausch's quotes:
When you see yourself doing something badly and nobody’s bothering to tell you anymore, that’s a very bad place to be. Your critics are your ones telling you they still love you and care.

Experience is what you get when you didn’t get what you wanted.

The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough.

You can’t get there alone. People have to help you and I do believe in karma. I believe in paybacks. You get people to help you by telling the truth. Being earnest.

Apologise when you screw up and focus on other people, not on yourself.

Don’t complain. Just work harder.

It’s not about how to achieve your dreams. It’s about how to lead your life. If you lead your life the right way, the karma will take care of itself. The dreams will come to you.

Dr. Randy Pausch was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer on the 16th of September 2006. Pausch died from pancreatic cancer at his family's home in Chesapeake, Virginia on July 25, 2008 at the age of 47. He is survived by his wife, Jai, and their three children, Dylan, Logan, and Chloe.


SPM results. =)

Finally the time had arrived and passed.
Got up at 8am and waited for friends to come before we headed off to school together. To do what?
Collect our SPM result of course!
Anyway, I was extreamly nervous for real. My heart was beating so fast.
But thank goodness, I'm and satisfied with my result.
I noticed that some people who'd achieved better results than me are not satisfied just because they've not got straight A+. But to me, I've done my best and I'm moving on!
Next stop, STPM.
I'll be even more prepared for the battle!!!

Sleep tight tonight people~


I'm short. I know.

Days, months and years flew by. Just in a blink of eye, its 2010. I never thought I would finish secondary school this fast. I never thought my friends will all be heading their own way this soon. But no matter what, those are the past. I would be 18 in a few months time. At this age, decision making is crucial. Every single decision must be thought carefully, balancing the pros and cons so that there will be no regrets in the future. Help from parents in making decision such as what to do after SPM, what would I study next and so fort had decreased tremendously.
I know you people see me laughing around, cracking jokes, but I've tried being serious and its not working for me. Cause life just seem too dull like that. Call me immature but let me tell you something, my thinkings are totallymature.

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PS: Joke around, I'm fine, but please don't take advantage of me. I'm aware of that.
Good luck tomorrow peeps!


Directed by Karthryn Bigelow

The Hurt Locker was awesome. I watched it on PSS this morning.
The 2 hour movie is a suspenseful portrait of the courage under fire of the military's unrecognized heroes : the techincians of a bomb squad who volunteer to challenge the odds and save lives doing one of the world's most dangerous jobs. Three membbers of the Army's elite Explosive Ordnance Disposal (EOD) squad battle insurgents and one another as they search for and disarm a wave of roadside bombs on the streets of Baghdad. Their mission is clear, protect and save, but it's anything but easy.
This fictional tale is inspired by real events by journalist and screenwriter Mark Boal.
(adapted: Official site of The Hurt Locker http://www.thehurtlocker-movie.com/)

The ending wasn't what I thought it would be. It showed Sergeant First Class William James, played by Jeremy Renner who is very good at his job, back at his home in America. But it seems that he could not adjust to a life of family. He tells his baby boy, that life progresses the number of things we love shrinks inexorable. Maybe you think he was talking about his boy, but no, the last scene showed him getting off the helicopter for another tour in Iraq.

Watch it if you've got the time.

the hurt locker poster Pictures, Images and Photos THE HURT LOCKER Pictures, Images and Photos

They were recently awarded 6 Oscar awards. (Avatar had 3 only if I'm not mistaken) =)


Nervous larh....=S

This coming Thursday will be THE day.
The day that will show if everything I've worked for is worth it or I've not done enough.
I might not be the best student, nor could I hardly make it into the top 10 position in class most of the time, I know I've given my best shots in all those papers. Those papers I took VERY seriously like the others.
I started having sleepless nights when I read about the date we can collect our results in school. Well, I don't think I'm the only one feeling nervous though....

But no matter how scare I am about our results being revealed on Thursday, nothing is going to change. We all will still have to move on with that result we obtained. So hope for the best...
We tried our best. =)


SPM 2009




Bye Thailand!

Hey people, I'm back!
Back from where?
Back from Hatyai, Thailand.
Went with mum, grandma, family members of aunt's and uncle's friends. Left Malaysia around 9 or 10pm, I don't remember. On the 25th of Feb, that's a Thursday.
Went by a 28 sitter bus. Reached immigration at 5 in the morning, passed at 6am. Journey continued, with a local tour guide. He speaks so many languages! Mainly he used mandarin. By the time we reached Hatyai, it was already 9am if I'm not mistaken. Had breakfast and started visiting places, or should I say, start spending money!
The food there was good, love the tomyam. Anyway, stayed for 2 nights there and left on a Sunday morning, after breakfast at the hotel lobby. It wasn't long till we passed immigration and customs. On the way back, dropped by Sungai Petani for lunch and Ipoh for a little shopping. Reached home about 7pm.
It was a great trip.


If only he knew

暗戀的滋味 妳不懂這種感覺

妳不懂我的 那些憔悴

妳又狠狠逼退 我的防備

直到那一天 妳會發現

為妳落第一滴淚 為妳做任何改變

直到那一天 妳會發現

Grandma's words...

My morning started with a touching Hokkien pop song. Tears.

阿嬤的話, Grandma's words.

The lyrics, said everything.
When I was young, my grandma took care of me. I spend my time at my grandparent's house while my parents were at work. Even though I was still very young but sometimes I do have flashbacks. I remember the day I didn't want to go to kindergarten when the teacher came to pick me up. She went there with me. Grandma passed away when I was really young so some of those memories are gone but till now, I still think of her. Of course, I would never forget that she's a great cook. Sometimes I love looking at photographs, and I'll not forget how she looked like.

There's a english translation in the song too. Enjoy.


Google Map? Never bothered before. Till now.

I never knew Google Map was that fun.
I'm actually on the streets of London, New York, Toronto and so much more in just a few minutes.
Everything is so clear on screen.
There's so much to explore!
Give a try.
Well, you wouldn't get a close satellite view of Malaysia. But you could actually see cars and people walking on streets. Its like you're there!
Okay, I'm excited. That's all.
Off exploring!


Today's the third day of CNY.
Spent 4 nights at my grandparents' house in Banting. (Father's side)
New clothes.
Delicious food.
Yummy biscuits.
(Horrible weather).
Great time.
I bet I'll put on weight. Cause all I did during the 4 days were eat, sleep, play and watch TV. The cycle goes on and on. Well, there were tones of biscuits and bottles of soft drinks. Okay, CNY what, enjoy! LOL.
Went visiting yesterday. (Mother's side)
More biscuits. =)
Had dinner at father's god sister's house.
Malay style. Satay, curry, and stuff.

Okay, that's all for my little summary.
Have fun you guys~


Happy Chinese New Year!

Chinese New Year is coming soon!
Happy Chinese New Year to all!

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Pissed off. :/

I pretty much want to SCREAM right now!
Yes..I do.

but I can't.




All done!

It just went by pretty fast. My number was 20 and there's altogether 8 cars used. They gave us a briefing, telling us what to do, time limit and how do you fail, lol. Yeah, because he kept saying, kalau macam ini, fail larh. Anyway I waited for my turn. A very friendly and full of confidence guy sat next to me. He kept asking people to calm down and offered chewing gum. Alas, it was my turn. I had a second chance at the hill part. Yes, I was too nervous, I admit. Parking was the part I scare most even though I've done it a lot of times. (I always screw up during practice, that's why) But anyway, I finished my parking. Phew~ Next was on the road, that went by even faster. By the way, I made new friends too. >.<
Okay, I passed. I finally finished my driving thingy. One thing accomplished!



All of a sudden, after I received a message from a friend last night, I miss schooling life. I miss waking up at 6 in the morning, getting dressed, walking to school. I don't know but I miss the assembly in the morning. I miss class, the lab, and most of all, I miss my friends. 4S2/5S2 was indeed a great class. Luckily I didn't choose to transfer to be with my other friends because I made new ones. =)
To all my friends out there, I'm thankful to have known you. Even though we hardly talk, or we don't talk anymore, thank you for being in my life, you play a role in shaping who I am today. I won't forget all of you, even if you have forgotten me. People change but I won't forget you.
All the best in whatever you're doing right now.
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Apa macam....

I'm so lost.Scratching head Pictures, Images and Photos
Maybe they're right, by going for form 6, it'll give me time to grow and be more mature before I make up my mind, what I want to do. But, STPM is hard! ><
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Last driving lesson tomorrow.
Taking exam soon.

OMG. I'm nervous.
Hope I do well. XD
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Remember, life ain't always beautiful

I'm going to share another song I like.
Life Ain't Always Beautiful by Gary Allan. You might have not heard of him but you have now. He's got some other great songs too, like Today, Watching Airplanes and many others. It's got meaningful lyrics in this song. Hope you like it too~

Lyrics :

Life aint always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

Life aint always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day

But the struggles make you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way of takin it's sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life aint always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride

Life aint always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin all these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life don’t work that way

But the struggles make me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has its own way of takin it's sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful
But i know i'll be fine
Hey, life aint always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride

Those who're in college, study hard.
Those in NS, you'll make it through, lol!


Chinese Horoscope 2010

Okay, I received an email today. Chinese Horoscope 2010.
I've read through quickly, and thought maybe I share what the author predicted for 'Monkeys'. =)
This is what he wrote:

Embrace the year of the Tiger as there will be indications of movement that might refer to moving homes, frequent travels or simply being busy running errands. While you adhere to a tight schedule, there will be a great deal of instability during this year. There will also be many unforeseen circumstances that might strike quickly and suddenly that will also apply to your career, wealth and relationship matters. You might feel that you are being put to a test both physically and emotionally. You will tend to fall ill often and there will be signs of being accident-prone as well. People might let you down or pull the plug on you at the last hour. Thus, you might not want to rely too much on others as though it might sound quite bad, it will not entirely be a very bad year. You will be blessed with a lucky star that will be able to neutralize disastrous situations and help you survive the trials put to you. Your wealth luck will be very good this year. However, the possibility of large and sudden expenses will be equally strong and you will need to exercise caution when utilizing your good wealth to prevent losing it. Hold on tight and get ready for a roller coaster ride.

Not asking you to believe, not forcing you too. Even I believe in these kinds of things 50-50. So, just to share with you guys.

Have a nice day~


Many Times In My Life

Many times in my life I have disappointed you,
and begun to stray.
But you have pointed me in the right direction,
and sent me on my way.

Many times in my life I've needed a helping hand,
and someone to pull me up.
It was you who gave that helping hand,
and always cheered me up.

Many times I've been sad and down,
and taken it out on you.
But you stood by me and comforted me,
In times that I was bad.

Many times I've needed support,
and to know someone was there.
It was you who held me up,
and showed me how to care.

Many times I've wanted to tell you this,
But never got a chance.
You have helped me out in life,
and got me where I am.

You were there for me through thick and thin,
You never gave up on me ,
From the deepest of my heart I want to say I love you,
And to thank you for being there for me in times of good or bad.

A poem I picked from the internet.
Credits to Butterfly who wrote this.

I might have hurt your feelings unintentionally sometimes, my apologies. I'm sorry.

Happy Birthday Bryan~



I hid everything inside. Now. I don't even know who I am.
Mix emotions, pissed, unhappy, sad, mostly negative.
I'm so tired...exhausted...


My day..today.

Went to Jusco today with my family. Suppose to watch Avatar. Have been wanting to watch that movie ever since I watched 'The Making of Avatar' twice~ Well, TV showed twice. =)
Sadly, no more tickets. T.T
Forget it, movies, anytime also can watch. Internet can watch for free too. Just that no nice sound effect, and good quality. You know, cetak rompak. Hehe~

And Taufiq, you sure you catching up? I had my first lesson already~ LOL joking....

I first heard of this song, in my cousin's blog. Kiss The Rain, by Yiruma. It's a very beautiful piece. Well, I don't listen much to piano stuff but this is really nice. Apparently, Yiruma is a well-known pianist from South Korea. I did a little googling~

Guitar version~


Driving lesson

My L license arrived yesterday so I started learning how to drive today. Well I was thought 3 things today, if you count U-turn that would be 4. 1st was the three point turn. At first I didn't know what it is. I followed his every instruction step by step. That wasn't so hard, but I don't really know it was a turn when I first did it. All I know is, go forward, stop, reverse, stop, go forward. Swt~ I know. Next he taught me parking. Parking, fun but after a few times, tiring. Same goes to the uphill. Need to turn till the end, left, right. I get to go around the 3 things he thought me over and over again. Over and over again.
That was just it. My first lesson~

I woke up 5 this morning. Or earlier, I don't know. I couldn't sleep last night. And the night before. I have not a clue. I just kept turning and turning on my bed that I got so frustrated. I closed my eyes, hoping that I would eventually fall asleep but when I open my eyes, I realized that I was in my conscious state all along~ And I had not fall asleep. I got out of bed, walked around, went back to bed. Check on the time, since it's 5, might as well just stay awake. Turn here, turn there, finally, 6am!

My choice of music.

Not many people enjoy country music. Especially here. Some don't really understand what country music is all. But that didn't stop me from getting to know country music and enjoy musics from musicians like Brad Paisley, Tim McGraw, Martina McBride...bands like Lady Antebellum, Zac Brown Band, Brooks and Dunn..
One thing about Country music, they've got clean lyrics. And meaningful ones too. Call me weird but that's not going to stop me from listening to this kind of songs.
Especially since few days ago I found an online radio that plays only country music 24/7. With 1 minute breaks after several songs. By several, I mean, after 5 to 7 songs. It's great, non stop music. Without me having to keep clicking and searching on Youtube.
Of course, I still listen to other kind of music, except metal though. =)
Country Music Pictures, Images and Photos

Besides that, my L license is officially out today~ Going for my first driving lesson tomorrow.

Hope you're doing fine~


I'm not supposed to?

I'm not supposed to love you,
I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not suppoesd to live my life
wishing you were there,
I'm not supposed to wonder
where you are or what you do,
I'm sorry,
I can't help myself.

Tuition classes?

It's 5.44pm right now. If this is year 2009, I would be sitting in Mr. Sugu class till 6.30pm. And then maybe my mother would pick me up, which would be nice because I would get to go to Chi Liung's 'Pasar Malam'. Otherwise, I would wait till sometime around 7pm for my father to come. Now I miss waiting outside 7-eleven~

I miss school, and definitely miss tuition classes. On Monday, I used to have no tuition till I joined Physics intensive classes which have helped me a little one of my weakest subject and the subject I had no interest in. Tuesday, my favorite day, and one of the most tiring day I suppose. I'll have 4 hours of Chemistry. That's because I take Form 4 and Form 5 chemistry tuition together. I never had any tuition for Chemistry when I was in Form 4. After taking Chemistry tuition, Chemistry became one of my favorite subject. Chemistry~ Wednesday will be Accounts with Mr. Sugu. That's definitely the most 'disciplined' tuition time. He have got all sorts of rules in class. I don't know maybe I'm just afraid of them, or him. Nah~ Just kidding. Thursday night will be all the way to Bukit Tinggi for Add Math in ET. They've got great air conditioning, and I think it's colder than being up there in Genting. =) And lastly, Friday, BM class! Long hours for a language subject but it's fun with a dedicated teacher teaching. BM classes were usually full.

Tuition summary~ I had nothing to do.

My condolences to you~



How was first day of school? You guys get to go to school, do activities in NS camps while I'm stuck at home whole day. Man, I miss school. Weird thing, during schooling days, I love skipping school. Now, how I wish I've got school.
I've started finding job. No success. Contacted 4 kindergarten. 2 said no need...another 2 still hanging in the air. Arh! Any recommendation? I'm rotting at home~
Since I've got so much time and everyone's been starting college, I started my 'class' today too. General Biology from UC Berkeley. I've got Form 6 books already so it's pretty much going to class. At least, I'm 'inputing' something if not experience which I suppose I would gain if I'm out working.

Unrequited Love Pictures, Images and Photos
So complicated, that's why there's -> Small Heartbreak Pictures, Images and Photos.

miss you Pictures, Images and Photos
I do...but...you'll never know...


The start of a new chapter.

School starts tomorrow! End of holiday...well not for me~
Some are starting their college tomorrow too. That's fast.
I'm not, still got lots of time.
Well, some of them left for NS today too.

For those going back to school, have fun. Those who're starting their new life in college, have more fun. Those in NS right now, oh dear, have fun too, but be safe~

We're all starting a new chapter of our lives.