Apa macam....

I'm so lost.

Maybe they're right, by going for form 6, it'll give me time to grow and be more mature before I make up my mind, what I want to do. But, STPM is hard! ><

What to do?

Last driving lesson tomorrow.
Taking exam soon.
OMG. I'm nervous.
Hope I do well. XD

Remember, life ain't always beautiful

I'm going to share another song I like.
Life Ain't Always Beautiful by Gary Allan. You might have not heard of him but you have now. He's got some other great songs too, like Today, Watching Airplanes and many others. It's got meaningful lyrics in this song. Hope you like it too~




Lyrics :

Life aint always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

Life aint always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day

But the struggles make you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way of takin it's sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life aint always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride

Life aint always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin all these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life don’t work that way

But the struggles make me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has its own way of takin it's sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful
But i know i'll be fine
Hey, life aint always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride

Those who're in college, study hard.
Those in NS, you'll make it through, lol!

Chinese Horoscope 2010

Okay, I received an email today. Chinese Horoscope 2010.
I've read through quickly, and thought maybe I share what the author predicted for 'Monkeys'. =)
This is what he wrote:

Embrace the year of the Tiger as there will be indications of movement that might refer to moving homes, frequent travels or simply being busy running errands. While you adhere to a tight schedule, there will be a great deal of instability during this year. There will also be many unforeseen circumstances that might strike quickly and suddenly that will also apply to your career, wealth and relationship matters. You might feel that you are being put to a test both physically and emotionally. You will tend to fall ill often and there will be signs of being accident-prone as well. People might let you down or pull the plug on you at the last hour. Thus, you might not want to rely too much on others as though it might sound quite bad, it will not entirely be a very bad year. You will be blessed with a lucky star that will be able to neutralize disastrous situations and help you survive the trials put to you. Your wealth luck will be very good this year. However, the possibility of large and sudden expenses will be equally strong and you will need to exercise caution when utilizing your good wealth to prevent losing it. Hold on tight and get ready for a roller coaster ride.

Not asking you to believe, not forcing you too. Even I believe in these kinds of things 50-50. So, just to share with you guys.

Have a nice day~

Many Times In My Life

Many times in my life I have disappointed you,
and begun to stray.
But you have pointed me in the right direction,
and sent me on my way.

Many times in my life I've needed a helping hand,
and someone to pull me up.
It was you who gave that helping hand,
and always cheered me up.

Many times I've been sad and down,
and taken it out on you.
But you stood by me and comforted me,
In times that I was bad.

Many times I've needed support,
and to know someone was there.
It was you who held me up,
and showed me how to care.

Many times I've wanted to tell you this,
But never got a chance.
You have helped me out in life,
and got me where I am.

You were there for me through thick and thin,
You never gave up on me ,
From the deepest of my heart I want to say I love you,
And to thank you for being there for me in times of good or bad.

A poem I picked from the internet.
Credits to Butterfly who wrote this.

I might have hurt your feelings unintentionally sometimes, my apologies. I'm sorry.

Happy Birthday Bryan~

=S

I hid everything inside. Now. I don't even know who I am.
Mix emotions, pissed, unhappy, sad, mostly negative.
I'm so tired...exhausted...

My day..today.

Went to Jusco today with my family. Suppose to watch Avatar. Have been wanting to watch that movie ever since I watched 'The Making of Avatar' twice~ Well, TV showed twice. =)
Sadly, no more tickets. T.T
Forget it, movies, anytime also can watch. Internet can watch for free too. Just that no nice sound effect, and good quality. You know, cetak rompak. Hehe~

And Taufiq, you sure you catching up? I had my first lesson already~ LOL joking....

I first heard of this song, in my cousin's blog. Kiss The Rain, by Yiruma. It's a very beautiful piece. Well, I don't listen much to piano stuff but this is really nice. Apparently, Yiruma is a well-known pianist from South Korea. I did a little googling~

Guitar version~

Driving lesson

My L license arrived yesterday so I started learning how to drive today. Well I was thought 3 things today, if you count U-turn that would be 4. 1st was the three point turn. At first I didn't know what it is. I followed his every instruction step by step. That wasn't so hard, but I don't really know it was a turn when I first did it. All I know is, go forward, stop, reverse, stop, go forward. Swt~ I know. Next he taught me parking. Parking, fun but after a few times, tiring. Same goes to the uphill. Need to turn till the end, left, right. I get to go around the 3 things he thought me over and over again. Over and over again.
That was just it. My first lesson~

I woke up 5 this morning. Or earlier, I don't know. I couldn't sleep last night. And the night before. I have not a clue. I just kept turning and turning on my bed that I got so frustrated. I closed my eyes, hoping that I would eventually fall asleep but when I open my eyes, I realized that I was in my conscious state all along~ And I had not fall asleep. I got out of bed, walked around, went back to bed. Check on the time, since it's 5, might as well just stay awake. Turn here, turn there, finally, 6am!

My choice of music.

Not many people enjoy country music. Especially here. Some don't really understand what country music is all. But that didn't stop me from getting to know country music and enjoy musics from musicians like Brad Paisley, Tim McGraw, Martina McBride...bands like Lady Antebellum, Zac Brown Band, Brooks and Dunn..
One thing about Country music, they've got clean lyrics. And meaningful ones too. Call me weird but that's not going to stop me from listening to this kind of songs.
Especially since few days ago I found an online radio that plays only country music 24/7. With 1 minute breaks after several songs. By several, I mean, after 5 to 7 songs. It's great, non stop music. Without me having to keep clicking and searching on Youtube.
Of course, I still listen to other kind of music, except metal though. =)

Besides that, my L license is officially out today~ Going for my first driving lesson tomorrow.

Hope you're doing fine~

I'm not supposed to?

I'm not supposed to love you,
I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not suppoesd to live my life
wishing you were there,
I'm not supposed to wonder
where you are or what you do,
I'm sorry,
I can't help myself.

Tuition classes?

It's 5.44pm right now. If this is year 2009, I would be sitting in Mr. Sugu class till 6.30pm. And then maybe my mother would pick me up, which would be nice because I would get to go to Chi Liung's 'Pasar Malam'. Otherwise, I would wait till sometime around 7pm for my father to come. Now I miss waiting outside 7-eleven~

I miss school, and definitely miss tuition classes. On Monday, I used to have no tuition till I joined Physics intensive classes which have helped me a little one of my weakest subject and the subject I had no interest in. Tuesday, my favorite day, and one of the most tiring day I suppose. I'll have 4 hours of Chemistry. That's because I take Form 4 and Form 5 chemistry tuition together. I never had any tuition for Chemistry when I was in Form 4. After taking Chemistry tuition, Chemistry became one of my favorite subject. Chemistry~ Wednesday will be Accounts with Mr. Sugu. That's definitely the most 'disciplined' tuition time. He have got all sorts of rules in class. I don't know maybe I'm just afraid of them, or him. Nah~ Just kidding. Thursday night will be all the way to Bukit Tinggi for Add Math in ET. They've got great air conditioning, and I think it's colder than being up there in Genting. =) And lastly, Friday, BM class! Long hours for a language subject but it's fun with a dedicated teacher teaching. BM classes were usually full.

Tuition summary~ I had nothing to do.

My condolences to you~

=)

Hello~
How was first day of school? You guys get to go to school, do activities in NS camps while I'm stuck at home whole day. Man, I miss school. Weird thing, during schooling days, I love skipping school. Now, how I wish I've got school.
I've started finding job. No success. Contacted 4 kindergarten. 2 said no need...another 2 still hanging in the air. Arh! Any recommendation? I'm rotting at home~
Since I've got so much time and everyone's been starting college, I started my 'class' today too. General Biology from UC Berkeley. I've got Form 6 books already so it's pretty much going to class. At least, I'm 'inputing' something if not experience which I suppose I would gain if I'm out working.

So complicated, that's why there's -> .

I do...but...you'll never know...

The start of a new chapter.

School starts tomorrow! End of holiday...well not for me~
Some are starting their college tomorrow too. That's fast.
I'm not, still got lots of time.
Well, some of them left for NS today too.

For those going back to school, have fun. Those who're starting their new life in college, have more fun. Those in NS right now, oh dear, have fun too, but be safe~

We're all starting a new chapter of our lives.